What do I do about this?! I'm confused and angry!?

The last thing i want to do is offend your love for your boyfriend because its inevitable if i say anything bad about him you will reject my answer because love has got a firm grip on you.I dont know you or him but from what you have said he doesnt even seem worth all of the stress.Your relationship seems like a burden but your held back by fear NOT love.You fear loosing your BF but at the same time you know that he is capable of running away with another girl.I personally would have got out of relationship like that a long time ago.He used to be a player is just an excuse for a player to pretend not to still be one.Its like what was the point in falling in love with a guy that you always have to be in fear of him leaving for another girl? I dont know else i can say really.Its not my life its yours.Your capable of making your own choices.